shyConfessiOns

RANDOMNESS:

hahahaha…

i know.. like duh . im still alive ==

hahahhaa… but it kinda seemed like im dead coz of the abandoned blog XD

truth is, i started a new blog liao…..

so haha!

anyway, update a bit lar. sien only la. waste the space for what XD

so yeah, CCF coming this sunday! hahaha .  Concerto Concert Festival?

kind of scary… but exciting.

just hope my PmS wont affect my mood. i need to be CRazY mooded that day XD new term hahahaha. and pls pls pls DONT let anyone melt my heart!its like a war going on in me all the time.

i know im not perfect. but i dont want to go on CHOOSING to walk another step away from God! its a deadly decision ! God can stike me dean anytime. and im not going to take this lightly, coz its eternity we’re talking about here!

dont think about NOW and ignore all consequences! you’l regret it in the future. every second of your life counts ! and when u die someday, dont weeep and regret it when u watch your whole life on a big screen, and its not how you wanted it to be, AT ALL.

haha. that thought scares me sometimes, that i’l be spending eternity with God, and im supposed to please God, not HUMANS ! not myself. coz in the end, it all dissappears, and God remains ^^

hahaha…. crap. what am i talking. im so blur. anyway, fight the thoughts! fight leng zai s!  form an ANTI-LENG ZAi team! ahahahah

cause they make me lose my fine judgements and cause me to do silly things.

hate hate hate!!!

XD its getting long isnt it, the post XD

okay fine. GOODBYE ahahaha

=)

+-*/melody - licious XD

i love everyone but im not in love with anyone other than God. understand ma? im not gonna let myself “fall in love” or watever coz its just wasting my time and energy. and tears XD hahahahhaa  get me! so dont wonder so much dont wait for me dont feel anything coz whenever im with “whoever”, i only see you as a friend or a brother or a whatever k ^^ 

im NOT IN LOVE okay =D

i sayang you all though. loves ^^

hahaha.. ever wondered why my titles of my blogs have no significance to my blogs? XD haharhahar

anyway… long time no write so jz update for.. FUN…

yah. and why do we miss someone when u know u’re not seriously in LOVE wid him/her? I mean, why does that person keep popping up in your mind when soeone mentions… stuff like love? and u don even feel any "chemistry"?? weird. human’s heart. XD

hey glad im "stuck" wit you at the moment coz we think alike.

XD ha ha ha! serious la. enjoy the moment while u’re still young right ^^

ntg le.

reminder to melody: DO NOT BE AFRAID< ONLY BELIEVE!

melodaaay ^^ banana head

Jesus loves YOU! yes you!

XD

And.. if u will jz give ur heart n life nto Him, He’l show u things u’ve nvr known before =D

thats all i hav to say. why suffer in emptiness?! He’s your answer to everything.

He’s your solution!

want Him or not… its your choice.

expiry date:till the day u die.

(after that its too late) XD

hahaha

im so blur..

whats happening to me?

HE says… if we fall in love we’l climb out of it XD

LOL. i guess thats possible. haha.. but im not in love yet. im steady! =P

miracle la if anyone can melt my heart. i’ve hardened it to ROCK hard coz of some experiences.. hahaha.. guess its kinda like a bondage or something?   i dunno.

anyway.. im really glad nowadays.. coz im fighting the GOOOOOD fight of faith and God’s with me all the way. =)

im not giving up. =) there r lots of ppl supporting me in this marathon of life im running.. and we’e in it together. so im not afraid. though i dont know what the future might bring.. (scary)

or what God has planned for me to do.. or whether im able to do it.. bla bla bla…  i dont worry. coz i’l leave it in God’s hands! if He loves me, and He’s the one planning everything for me.. then i dont have to worry at all! coz He wouldnt plan anything thats BAD for me riiight…  =.=

n i prayed today. n He was listening. =) He knows what im going thru and He’s carrying me in His mighty secure arms even though sometimes i may feel like He’s on vacation or something. hahaha

bottom line is, i love my LORD. because He 1st loved me ^^

+-*/melody

i knew you were always there….

knocking at the window to my heart..

but i’ve never realised you were there all the time..

and that you hav never left.

my heart belongs to you alone ^^

melody’s heart is your home, love you dear Jesus

T.T  dun let me refuse you

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thats all. ntg more to say =(

its all coming back again. voices. not literally, but i hear them. im my head. "im stupid. i hate myself.. "

i dont know if its true sometimes. T.T i cant do anything right. i JUST cant. everything i do is wrong. i need some backup! GOD why are you hiding? i need you.. NOW. im broken into a million peices and there’s no one i can look to… except you. but i CANT find you… you seem so distant. dont you want me anymore? i know i hav disappointed you.. God. but im sorry…. pls pls pls dun giv up on me.

i’l do your work! promise….. dun leave me T.T

i know you wont. =) jz reassure me. coz im really confused now

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send help God.

hahaha… ah seng! u dun come bak n say boring arr! slap u da!!!!

chop ur head! POOOF****

XD hahaha

meloDy

God has grant me a great day.. went ice skating today nand He was with me the whole day. even though i forget Him some times.. He nvr forgets me. =) i went ice skating with Him. =) not jz wid my friends. haha… i love God….

its such a happy feeling! ice skating.

brings back sweet memories of my childhood. i used to rolloer blade with my family in botanical garden and youth park (penang)

bottem line is.. im happy today. =)

thank God ^^

+-*/happified