shyConfessiOns

these a few days… im feeling so left out… n nobodi seems to care.. no one seems to even remember me. nobody cares. thats wat i always say to myself.

everytime im not feeling well, i wud tell someone but they juz pretended they didnt hear it. how can they really din hear? i told them 3 or 4 times and they juz like "oh"… they don even notice me. im like invincible.

even my closest fren in school… she doesnt care much about me. she juz needed someone to care about her. like? me… duh.

maybe she doesnt realize it. but she expects me to care for her and listen to her probs but she herself wun even care to listen 2 me. everybodi is like that. nobodi wans to listen. they juz wan to share. who wud listen?? nobody. nobodi at all.

and i juz had hari sukan a few weeks ago… and prefects are supposed to march for hari sukan. i wud love to join… but im having nose-bleeding problems. thats so sad… so i din join. but i like to see them march and have fun together. there was once i stayed behind to see their formation and maybe if they need it.. i can help. but nobodi notices me.. nobodi cares. i juz stood there holding their stuff.. it was the last day to practise b4 the real day. and i wud like to support them n hoped for them to win more than anything. i really wanted them to win!!! really. but who wud ever see how much i cared. they asked me to go back to my class n said i ponteng. coz it wan a school hour wen they practised. well.. i was hurt… deeeeeeeep inside. nobodi cares right? yup. no one at all. on the real day? i was so tired for standing and dutying for 2 hours alr… and then change shift under tjhe sun samore… i was so pissed off wen my fren kept on disturbing me and teasing me on how i tugas. my back hurts and i wanted to slap her. it was so hot and i cant duty well. anyway.. i told God… that if the prefects win.. i wud forget all that happened that day and forgive her.. thats how muc i wanted them to win. but who cares?? nobody.

watever… as long as jesus cares.