shyConfessiOns

there are lots of things happening all around n still many hav not realised! its happening ow! revival has come upon many places n i want malaysia to be a part of this! 

seen o heard abt Florida? its happening fast! MOMENTUM! its starting n it won’t stop. i want to be a part of that! im so amazed! im here strugglying.. n forgetting all the lost sheep. but see! the LORD is doing something new! He is doing it now. can u see it??

night is almost over, daylight is coming! let us stop doing the things that belong to the dark n start living as God planned for us to! cant u see? God is carrying out His plans! stop procrastinating!

http://www.god.tv/florida

watch n u’l know.

melody

i dunno wad to do anymore!!! nothing seems right!! i hate myself! i hate myself ! i hate myselt so much! ughh!! wish i cud slap myself n dun feel the pain. lol.. why cant i do anything right?! i hate myself! i really do. my spirit is SUPER willing but my flesh is weak! i hate this…

help me! save my soul!!

S.O.S. GOD! help me… T.T im so worn out now.. i need to be refreshed n renewed.. i need God’s presence in my life again.. i need GOd.. i need Jesus to comfort me again.. i cant find Him somehow! where has He gone? i know He nvr left me.. but why cant i hear His sweet little voice? like i always did? im confused! i dunno wad to do! i dunno wad to think! i dunno wad to say when i pray to Him! i dunno whether to break down or to bury my problems somewhere n ignore them.. im afraid nto do it wrong! im afraid to reach out to my frens coz im not connected to God now… im afraid of everything!!

ahh! XO  help!

but i’l keep trusting in your word.. i know u’l always giv me strength to carry on. n there’s always a way out. i know too.. that u know me n how far i can endure better than i know myself. n the best thing is.. that you love me. alot.. =) so i’l trust in u. i’l try my VERY best!

i claim the promise u made to me today! that you’l be compassionate to me n lead me back. that i’l hav no need to seek u anymore coz u’l b here. rmbr ur promise to me LORD! i know i wont be disappointed in u!

jz hurry up n dun leave me here hanging all alone in the dark confusion!

love you Jesus..

melOdy

God… yesterday i passed some stuff abt You to my friends…. pls help! im scared of wad might happen. i know u said to trust u….. but im still worried!  remind me of all the COOL things u’ve done in my life… n reassure me to continue to TRUsT in your love =)

Jesus Help…. T.T

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hav to remember hav to focus hav to b determined!!

no time left!!!  i see China’s suffering people. i see the Lost. i see my own selfishness. i see the need for it to fade away. i see God’s compassion. i see all my friends’ needs. i see beyond the world. i see God. i see my purpose. i see , eternal. i see more than just here and now. i see more than all i could ever want on earth. i see the important things. i see people without hope. i see people without purpose in life. i see confusion everywhere.

and IM STILL HERE worrying abt NOTHING. nothing that really matters. HOW dUmB can i get?! WAKE UP melody!!   

God put me here for many reasons. im not gonna let Him down. at least i’l try my very best. =) i love Jesus

melody(Jesus.Freak)

im sitting in the dark.. (again)

listening to that same old song..  (again)

and im thinking of u.. (again)

doesnt mean i still like u..

but it still feels sad thinking bout it again.

haha… a whole lot of 4 yrs i wasted. cant believe i was so obsessed abt u. XD

but…. anyhow. its oVeR. =)

melody  ^^

Jesus said, loud n clear.  ‘cast all your worries n cares upon me, for i care for u…’
he told me not to worry.. he’ll take care of everything. Today.. he assured me that  even before i was born, i was already in His care, n that He’l never leave me. ever!
i love Jesus.. wish i cud do something jz to show Him i feel really really sorry….

sorry, God.. that you hav to worry for me everyday..
sorry that i giv u so much problems.. haha.. sorry LORD… that i hurt your sweet little heart, everytime i doubt your love. sorry.. when i forget to pray… sorry when i choose others over you… sorry when i burdened u wid all my worries n sins…. T.T  im so sorry dear father in heaven…. pls forgiv me =]   i love you alot God. =}  pls help my firends… and sauway n weihan (again) XD  coz i want them to know u too… i love u… - again! take care of me Lord, dun let me stray away….   ^^

Melody(as i am)